2016 is a little more than just half over, and looking back my decision to work on self improvement this year, instead of obsessing about my artwork, has paid off and in strides.
By self improvement I mean investing not only in my health, but also my art business. I've been busy taking business, art, and other types of classes. I also spent a good chunk of coin on books (all bought used thanks to Amazon) and art supplies.
I've also have been upgrading my studio equipment I'm now an iPhone/Mac user, and had equipment serviced: my Janome 6500 no longer clunks when using the zig zag stitch, and my studio lamp now turns on every time, and actually stays on.
To be honest June into July has felt a whole lot like christmas! But I won't lie, while I made this decision back in December of 2015, it was hard at first, I felt guilty. I justified taking classes that meant growth. I had to overcome fear.
The fear of "what if"?
It's doesn't happen all of the time. But it does happen. It happened today, about an hour ago actually.
What if the sewing machine doesn't work when I plug it in, and turn it on. My 60 day service warranty expired yesterday and I hadn't started up the machine since I picked it up from servicing.
Yup, you're not the only one, there's a huge tribe of us out here in the land of the internet that all suffer from fear induced procrastination.
I'm finishing up some handmade book signatures this afternoon, I will film the process, for my Pretty Pigments class that starts September 6th. I'll be posting about the upcoming class and soon, yes I have tons of fear, and procrastination, about teaching online again. And I have every intentions of putting that fear to rest.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~ Marianne Williamson